I just weighed and it said 298.2. How did I get here? Why do I love food more than I love myself? Is that the bottom line? What causes me to be so obsessed with food that I just eat and eat? I can go to a fast food place and eat an ungodly amount. It has to stop. I want to feel normal. This is not normal.
My first small goal is to get back to a 2x. The reason is that over the years I would start a diet and then something would happen where perhaps I was buying a t-shirt and I would think "Oh I will get a 2x because pretty soon I will be down to that." Well summer time is rolling around and I want to get down to some of those 2x t-shirts I can't wear. I won't even tell you how many I have in my closet.
Small goals...one day at a time.
Oh and...I think I am going to drop caffeine. I just don't like diet sodas and the regular ones just aren't good for me. So...I will have to toughen it out. There will be headaches and I will want to rip someone's head off, but I have to do this. I guess if I am not going to go cold turkey then I could just see how long I can go and then when the headache starts I will have one. Eventually the time between headaches will get longer and then will go away. I have a friend who quit drinking caffeine. I can do this.
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